An email I received this morning:
"Good morning, my love.
I wanted to take a few minutes to write to you this morning before I call you. Your recent words of love have been so sweet and uplifting, and they have really helped to bridge the gap between just hearing your voice (even though I could listen to you all day long) and actually seeing you here, at my door.
Last night I was very restless and had a hard time falling asleep, yet my thoughts were all good -- they were so good, Peter. It's as though I have been like Tom Hanks, all alone on a deserted island, making do with a little scrap of this or that. I existed, and I tried to find gratitude for each day so that the loneliness would not overcome me. And I was willing to risk it, build a raft of my invisible hopes and dreams, and then paddle, paddle, reach for the open sea, where my own true love was also searching for me, like a needle in a haystack, like a small raft in an ocean of the unmanifest.
And now here you are, and you make me yearn, and laugh, and burn, and express myself. I feel fully dimensional, the reincarnation of Sassy Sally Ann. The thought of being loved by you -- and even more than that, of loving you -- of adding layers of memory, intimacy, friendship, passion -- as equals and cherished partners -- is already like paradise. It is already so much; it is already enough. You have given me so much already, Peter Kopher.
And in less than two days, you will be here, and I will have to remind myself to breathe, because you have stolen my breath with yourself, with your achingly wonderful self.
I love you.
Sally Ann XO"
It's been a long, hard - and, at times, a very cold - 10 years since my ex and I split; and I've longed and yearned for this to eventually happen. Now the day is near. Tomorrow I finally meet in a person a woman with whom I went to high school, 35-37 years ago! Back then, she didn't even know I existed, although we were both in band together; but she was also a cheerleader, as well as a National Honor Society member, and I merely a band geek. I admired (and secretly lusted after) her way back then; yet as if our stars had finally aligned - after all this time - and in a different and more serendipitous way than either of us expected (and in spite of the use of a number of different online dating sites by each of us - a couple of which we were both on, but were never matched up) we "met" via email, soon added frequent - and hours' long - multiple phone calls each day to our repertoire, and have fallen deeply in love.
"Tomorrow we'll discover what our God in heaven has in store.
One more dawn, one more day, one day more!"
~ Les Miserables
UPDATE: We finally did meet, a week ago tonight. It was sheer bliss!



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